The Secrets to Life
I think I’ve discovered the secrets to a happy life, and I’m going to share it with everyone- even if it’s someone I completely despise. Hey, I could be a total asshole and keep the things I learned to myself, or I could share it with everyone without any benefit other than knowing that I could be making a difference in someone’s life.
The secrets to a happy life is all about how one takes on the world every single day starting from the moment he/she wakes up. When the sun comes up every morning, one realizes there are two choices that he/she has- He/ She could either have an extraordinary day or continue to be bitter and say to everyone “screw the world.” Every single tomorrow is always a new beginning- It’s always a fresh new start. Say to yourself it’s never to late to make the best your day- maybe even your life. One makes the choice whether or not he/she is happy. No one can change his/ her mentality but himself. A clean state where he/ she is in control of his/ her outlook of anything no matter what happens that day. You’d be surprise how I learned this lesson – the people who have been disrespectful to me, those who have stepped all over me, and those who seem too bitter with the world have taught me this life’s worth lesson.
So yeah, believe it or not, my days are perfect to me. It’s obvious, I still worry. Yet, I know I am the only person to say whether or not I’m this or that. Problems will continue to come up, and I will continue to show my emotions. On occasion, my parents wi;; ye;; and narrate and lecture. My favorite movie shows will not come on one day, and I will begin to griping. A pimple will show up on my face one morning, and I’ll freak out like the dork that I am. My mother will continue to refuse giving me some vicodin pills, but I only know she’s being caring. But at the end of those days, I look at myself in the mirror and the girl staring back at me just makes me want to laugh, to sing, to cry, to jump for pure unbounded joy. Why?- Because she is incredibly uplifting. She is incredibly alive and she is full of like- And that’s what amazes.
She makes my heart truly skip a beat, and that’s what makes life so fulfilling.
* ok before I end my entry I like to thank the coolest, dorkiest, and fattiest friend I have. Yup u know who im talking bout…it’s the Fordster!!! I still can’t believe what a lucky girl I am to have such an awesome friend…what you did today meant a lot to me and there are no words to express my gratitude =). You’re such a great person Ford and thanks for being such a fatty… and that’s right girls…he’s single…so better take ur chance before he’s taken again…he made seem like a hottie on the outside but he is a true dork in the inside!*
Lessons in Life
1. People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered; forgive them anway.
2. If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; be kind anyway.
3. If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies; succeed anway.
4. If you are honest and sincere, people may deceive you; be honest and sincere anyway.
5. What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight; create anyway.
6. If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous; be happy anyway.
7. The good you do today, will often be forgotten, do good anyway.
8. Give the best you have, and it may never be enough; give your best anyway.
9. In the final analysis, it is between you and God; it was never between you and them anyway.
-Mother Teresa-
My dad showed me this over dinner today. I think it exemplifies the mentality of such a great woman. I think my Dad's purpose is to pursue a mind like Mother Teresa as well as teach me a lesson without uttering any words whatsoever. All my friends enlighten me when they say to me how fortunate I am to have such a dad. *giggles* I think I've realized that NOW. I just hope one day i can be half as great as my dad when i am older...hes such a wonderful person and i just hope i have made him proud with what i have to offer in life.
IT'S TRUE...
It's very true...
It's very true that i've got expectations but i'd also like to call those expectations, standards. It's very true that I long to have a physical and mental connection with someone special or someone very close to my heart. It's true that i want this connecton, but never to have someone to complete me, for i am completely responsible when it comes to attaining one's own completion. It's very true that i am that exclusive, not so pretty looking novel perched secluded on that shelf, ready to be discovered, so open me up (discover my truths) and find my depth and wonderment. It's true... so dont underestimate me or think you know me...
Still...
Each time that i do sacrifice a piece of my feelings, my needs, my hopes, and my dreams, i result and conclude that i've given a piece of myself, something that's a part of who i am. I've realized the more that i sacrifice and give up, the more pieces, of who i am, continue to slowly disappear and less of myself remains. I'm putting up my wall again, not giving a single bit of who i am, until a guy can sweep me off my feet. A relationship without meaning is not what i want. I want something more; something worth my time...
Something I've learned...
Having a tender open-hearted person beside you is not a curse, but a true blessing. Being deeply in love with strong rush of devotion is not a mistake, but a gift needed to be cherished. Putting love first is not a weakness, but an expression of who you are. As long as you dont take that love for granted, you'll learn that it's one of the greatest things you could ever have.
True freedom in a relationship is not about limitations of what one can or cannot do, but the free to love without apprehension of fear, to receive without resistance, and to give all without holding back. Your lover or significant other should be one with the potential to become your best friend.
It's true...
love is something i have given up on...i have nothing to show for it and love has nothing to show me ( i guess for right now until my prince charming sweeps me off my feet =)! ).
summer plans
lol sry but had to get all the bad things off my chest =)...but anywho i think this summer im gonna be spending time with grandpa and grandma smith in LA...also i'll prolly be in Hacienda Heights with my cousins ( i think i spelled it right idk). And, yes im gonna spend two months there so yeah...i think it'll be good for me i'll get to escape from all this drama that surrounds me right now and come home refresh lol! Plus, my cousins Nikki and Ally says that the guys there are hot so maybe i'll get to meet some hot stud there lol! Oh and of course i will get to improve on my sucky golf skills with the help of grandpa who so rocks at playing golf (last time i played golf i almost hit someone with the golf ball and my dad who was there couldnt stop laughing but it was pretty funny).
So, i am gonna cancel on the europe trip this summer and maybe next yr or something...but if anyone is going to LA too jsut hit me up on my cell and well hang out. Oh and i have a new cell...i dropped my old one and it kinda broke =/ so the new number is 832 875 5607! ok so i've updated alot lately so dont expect it to always be alot like this cuz i think starting next wk things are going to be chaos! oh and i have new pics but it takes too long to put it on here so just im me when im on and i'll send u some!
My First Love
Anonymous said...
Krystal sweetheart i don't get it i know what i've done is wrong but it doesn't mean i don't love you. I've always loved you and always will you're my soulmate krystal and it kills me that i hurted you. I don't know what happened and i'm a bastard for it but we don't have to give up on this. I love you krystal michelle smith and i dont't want to give up on what we've worked so hard for. baby please think about all the good times we had together all the things we've talked about the beautiful dreams we had together and everything we wanted to do in the future. Baby please dont walk away from this i LOVE U and i wont stop thinking about you krystal. You're everything that i wanted and more and i won't let us end like this because we're suppose to be together forever. I know im rough around the edges and you know that already but these are the things i need you to help me with you're the person that makes me a better person and without you im at square one and i dont know what i would do without you baby. Im so sorry for what is happening i really didnt mean it to happen but it did and im so sorry sweatheart...i know i've hurted you alot but please forgive me i love you so much krystal dont turn your back on us baby...please dont because without you in my life i will be nothing. pick up your cell baby and talk to me...and i hope you feel better sweets...I LOVE YOU...and i know its raining outside right now and i wished i could be there to protect the most beautiful girl on earth. i love you sweetheart!
-So this entry is dedicated to my first love...so i would really like it if u guys dont comment on this entry bc i want to have the last word at this-
So im just gonna type what my heart wants to say to you right now...
U were my first love..and like the fool i was i thought everything was going great...i dont think i could express the hurtful things that u brought upon my heart and right now u have me at my breaking point...and i've grown as a person because of the things you have exposed to me and right now i will not allow u into my heart anymore...bc im not the foolish girl that u see me as anymore....im not the stupid girl that u can walk all over....im more than that and im not just that girl that u can hurt...bc im NOT going to let u do that to me any longer. i know i prolly sound like a selfish bitch right now but i dont care anymore...i really dont...u got her pregnant and how do u think we could ever get back to where we were....are u insane?
Im sry that everyone has to see me like this...but i cant always be the cheerful, silly, and funny krystal that everyone sees...bc theres more to me than that...i dont have the perfect life that everyone sees bc thats not me, im not the girl with everything...so please dont act like u know me !
*sry for the horrible grammer but i had to post this fast*
