It's Time to Let Go
It's late...late at night when I wake up from a dream, where I make an attempt to remember what it is I am looking for. I eventually realize that there is nothing and only finding you. Or maybe really what's left of you. I feel absolutely terrible becuase I focus with too much of my energy on things a bit too meticulous. Because I wake up every morning and I then find myself falling asleep every night looking forward to only one thing. I don't know where or how to establish my self when the initiative falls and plunges through without motives. There's really no one at fault but myself, for I am the one who gets myself into these things and soul deteriorating fixations wheter good or bad.
In my heads there’s only you now…
This world falls on me
In this world, there’s real and make believe
And this seems real to me
And you love me but you don’t know who
I amI’m torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don’t know who I am
So let me go, just let me go, let me go
THREE DOORS DOWN- LET ME GO
Here I am, this point in life, where I feel everything means so much more than it used to, and it should be that way. Every single mistakes, kept in psyche, costs so much more than it should’ve and every time we slip, I slip and drag myself further away from you. Every moment I make is deliberate and thorough, and it should be that way. Every word is articulated into more than just the shaping of my lips and the construction of my tongue at work. Every word thrives and pierces at my heart, so a piece of you is imprinted there. You… I will never understand… its time to let go because what we had will never be again. I love you but I don’t know who you are…and you love me but you don’t know who I am…so I leave it at that.
* so there another new journal and you can now comment on this one so stop bitching at me lol cuz i jsut wasted an hr to do this GRRRRRRRRRR!*