It's Time to Let Go
It's late...late at night when I wake up from a dream, where I make an attempt to remember what it is I am looking for. I eventually realize that there is nothing and only finding you. Or maybe really what's left of you. I feel absolutely terrible becuase I focus with too much of my energy on things a bit too meticulous. Because I wake up every morning and I then find myself falling asleep every night looking forward to only one thing. I don't know where or how to establish my self when the initiative falls and plunges through without motives. There's really no one at fault but myself, for I am the one who gets myself into these things and soul deteriorating fixations wheter good or bad.
In my heads there’s only you now…
This world falls on me
In this world, there’s real and make believe
And this seems real to me
And you love me but you don’t know who
I amI’m torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don’t know who I am
So let me go, just let me go, let me go
THREE DOORS DOWN- LET ME GO
Here I am, this point in life, where I feel everything means so much more than it used to, and it should be that way. Every single mistakes, kept in psyche, costs so much more than it should’ve and every time we slip, I slip and drag myself further away from you. Every moment I make is deliberate and thorough, and it should be that way. Every word is articulated into more than just the shaping of my lips and the construction of my tongue at work. Every word thrives and pierces at my heart, so a piece of you is imprinted there. You… I will never understand… its time to let go because what we had will never be again. I love you but I don’t know who you are…and you love me but you don’t know who I am…so I leave it at that.
* so there another new journal and you can now comment on this one so stop bitching at me lol cuz i jsut wasted an hr to do this GRRRRRRRRRR!*
posted by ksmith405 @ 7:02 PM
47 Comments:
Krys im so damn proud of you...i know what you did was hard but it had to be done and u know u are a dream girl...every guy wants your ass but somewhere out there...there is a guy that will fit you perfectly
I LOVE U KRYSTAL MICHELLE SMITH...that was well put!
i miss you krystal when are you going up here to visit us! and cheer up sometimes things just dont work out
all i have to say is that LOVE SUCKS but you're such a great person Krystal and the right person will come soon! oh come to england this summer!
Krystal lets go to the beach sometime this month
Damnit Krystal why dou you have to be so hella fione!
Hiya krystal i saw u at the party the other night...looking pretty as usual lol =) hope to talk to you soon tho and i loved your presentation you so kick ass
Krystal i havent talk to you like forever...and u never on aim anymore get on aim more women! i miss u like crazy it seems like forever since i've seen you!
I love how you write krystal it so insightful and just so great or awesome as you would say it lol...but anywho are you still having the end of the yr party in may like every yr? or have u stopped that bc you know ur parties be hella fun!
damn krystal why you gotta be so damn smart and hot! see you at the party friday night
haha i saw how you wrapped ford and shane's car today that was some funny shit!
love you entries krystal they're so great to read...
hey krystal are you going to the lake anytime soon? or were you going to austin that weekend...email me back okie!
i liked your top the other night krystal you always look so chic and pretty...see you tonight at the party!
hey are u still thinking about going to LA this summer bc im going to go there this summer for like a few months so hit me up if you're coming so we can hang out...i miss u woman!
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note to ppl please keep the comments rate G i dont really like it when ppl talk bout me sexually cuz i dont feel comfy having ppl talk bout me in that way...so please respect my wishes and dont send perverted comments bc if u do i have to delete them...thanks
krystal smith i havent seen you for ages now! i hope you're still having throwing your usual party in may cause they be off the chain!
Krys i love your new hair do its so pretty where did you get it done?
hey girl i saw you at the club the last week...wow i knew you could dance...but i didnt know you could break it down like that it was hella tite girl...holla at your girl!
hola mami...hope you be doing good krys...i be missing having you around but i'll see you soon when i come home!
hey krystal wheres all your pics? put pics on i wanna see your new hair do everyone keeps telling me its so pretty i wanna see!
sometimes love is harsh but in time you'll find the right person krystal and whoever he happens to be he's on lucky bastard
i miss you woman call me!
why are you always away...grrrr i never get to talk to you anymore krystal you're always busy...but than again majoring in civil engineering is like selling your freedom away lol but you're smart so i'm pretty sure you think its so easy and still be makings those crazy 100s
hye krys great entry i'll see you at the party tonight!
I love the entry krystal...are you signing up for the car wash? i wanna do it but i dont know who else would so tell me monday in class
your hair looks so great krys where did you say you got it done again?
im sorrie about whats happening krys i know its hard but you're such a strong person krystal!
lol i love the prank you did today on steph and jess i love their reaction when they found their car all wrapped in saran wrapped and written on lol. ur hilarious krystal lol it was great and the funniest part was how you had those hot pink sicssors! i loved it your pranks are always the best...i really like the senior prank u did last yr it was GREAT!
u know what krystal i think its good that this happened since u can now move on to bigger and better thing right and you're so cool about everything and so strong that this is prolly no biggie for u. i'll see u around krys
hey it was good seeing you at the party last night krys. too bad you ahd to leave early and yes 2am is early.
krystal smith why did you leave so early last night? did you not feel good or something?
hey what are you doing sunday? I'm having a bbq tomorrow so see if you could come for a bit.
hey woman what are you doing today? Do u think you could drop by and help me with Calculus =/ because i suck at it and you're so damn good at it!
smith hope you be feeling good because you didnt look so great last night? I'll call later to check up on your ass.
hey I love your new hair do its so pretty hahaha too bad it costed you like 300 bucks lol but i know a better and cheaper place and you wanna try it next time.
looking hot last night krystal see you around
yes I'm damn happy that you put that up! What are you doing this summer I wanna hang out soon before you leave for LA? right? i dunno alot of ppl are telling me you be going to visit your grangparents this summer.
you looked great last night Krys too bad you had to leave early and i didn't even get to talk to the hottest girl at the party =/!
hey girl hope you feel better you didnt look so great last night. I think it's cause you didnt get enough sleep this week so get some rest ok.
OMG krystal your hair was is so purrty who did it grrrr im so jealous u always have the best thing! miss u babe!
mmmmmmmm lets go get so gelato krystal i know u wont say no hope ur feeling better u didnt look so good last night GET SOME REST WOMAN!
ms krystal smith hope you're feeling better sry that u didnt feel so hot last night i'll call today to check on u love u hot mama!
wow thanks for all the comments guys...i love u guys like a fat kids loves cake lol...i miss u guys soooo much and yes im gonna still have the party in may so yeah...but im feeling alot better now so thanks for your calls guys! UR AWESOME!
I love you krys like a fat kid loves cake haha hope you're feeling better you better not be going out tonight! U NEED REST!
Krystal sweetheart i don't get it i know what i've done is wrong but it doesn't mean i don't love you. I've always loved you and always will you're my soulmate krystal and it kills me that i hurted you. I don't know what happened and i'm a bastard for it but we don't have to give up on this. I love you krystal michelle smith and i dont't want to give up on what we've worked so hard for. baby please think about all the good times we had together all the things we've talked about the beautiful dreams we had together and everything we wanted to do in the future. Baby please dont walk away from this i LOVE U and i wont stop thinking about you krystal. You're everything that i wanted and more and i won't let us end like this because we're suppose to be together forever. I know im rough around the edges and you know that already but these are the things i need you to help me with you're the person that makes me a better person and without you im at square one and i dont know what i would do without you baby. Im so sorry for what is happening i really didnt mean it to happen but it did and im so sorry sweatheart...i know i've hurted you alot but please forgive me i love you so much krystal dont turn your back on us baby...please dont because without you in my life i will be nothing. pick up your cell baby and talk to me...and i hope you feel better sweets...I LOVE YOU...and i know its raining outside right now and i wished i could be there to protect the most beautiful girl on earth. i love you sweetheart!
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