Every now and than I feel like everything around me is moving so fast and I'm like a little, confused turtle in such a big world. Things seem to be changing so quickly and as every day goes by I feel like Alex and I are moving farther apart. (I don't think anyone still reads this anymore so I think I'm safe.) I don't think he has fully understand what I feel even though we have had our little talks about this. I feel like I'm completely a selfish girlfriend because I wanna spend all this time with him when he's just starting his new business but I think I should atleast have more than 10 minute each day to talk to him when a week before we use to talk like 2 hours each day. I don't know what I have become...I feel like I'm one of those "girls" now that wanna spend every moment with their boyfriends. (Something I completely did not EVER EVER wanna be, but everything that I though twisted and changed a bit since I've meet Alex...) But, now everything seems so wrong...I'm so confused and yet hurt at the same time because he's changing so much before my eyes and all I'm doing is sitting here alone again without him....and I guess that is how our relationship will be since nothing will really change...and it breaks my heart knowing that maybe deep inside that what we have might hit a breaking point....
Hello World =)
Wow i havent updated for a long time =(. Anywho the haloween party was awesome and now I'm gonna be super busy since finals are coming up...so yeah. It's 6:33 am right now and i just finish my morning running and for the past week I still can't figure out why its so cold in texas...WEIRD! =) ok must go get fatter and I'll update more I promise!
If I could have on thing in life...
I wish I could take back the hands of time...I don't want to let go.
So I have a question for you guy...Do I come off as a liar? I mean I always thought I was horrible at lying which is why I never even try. However, I just wanted to see your thoughts on this...
Your mom goes to college!!!
Hello fatties!!! So here is my update for this wk so u can stop bitching at me =) to update...i mean wat a fatty... who would actually read wat i write? Anywho the party is in two days!!! I think i've gotten everything down so im very proud of myself! I mean I planned every single details and i've already made the list so there's about 150 ppl coming which means theres about 200 ppl coming bc there's those fatties that never RSVP me! I hope it doesn't turn out to be like last yr's party bc it was just chaos and plz ppl leave ur drama at home...the party is for us to have fun not for us to get in stupid fights =)...hmm idk wat else to say and its pretty late and due to the fact that i do have to wake up early tom for work... i will leave u with the coolest site ever so u better go to it or else u'll die for being a fatty lol jk...I heart everyone of u even if u're a fatty!
http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?igm6901fz7i4
Ford's version of what guys want =(
Play with his penis. Never talk to him during a movie. Content yourself with 3 minutes of cuddling after sex, that's more than enough to fall asleep. Let him pick you up and throw you in the pool, and laugh about it. Hold his penis. Do not hold his penis and run. Or walk for that matter. Tell him you don't need flowers because the 300% mark-up is unjustifiably expensive. Tell him his penis looks huge. Introduce him to your friends as "the man I want to share with you, in bed." Sit with him at the ballgame and don't talk. Take him to the monster truck rally, steakhouses and strip clubs. Talk dirty to him in bed. Do a striptease for him. Do whatever it takes to make him horny. Have sex with him. A lot of sex. In fact, have so much sex you can't walk the next day. When he starts yelling at you, shut up and listen. Rub him, you know, down there. Let him play video games with his friends. Let him fall asleep on his side of the bed. Don't call him unless there is a purpose. Do not take 10 minutes to say one thing. Be succint. Jump on the bed with him, naked. Tatoo his name on your ass. Better yet, tatoo the name of his penis. That way, if you ever break up, you'll always have a reminder of his manhood. Get him mad, leave him alone. Change channels for him during commercial breaks. Give him backrubs. Give him oral sex. Give him food. Give him more oral sex. Give him oral sex while he watches television. Ride him like a cowgirl. Never keep him up all night talking. Leave him little bags of snacks throughout the house. It can be like an easter egg hunt, only for cheetos. Take him to secluded, yet public places, and have lots of sex. Make up flattering nicknames for his member, like Andre the Giant, or "the biggest penis I have ever seen in my life, including porn." Show up at work with a pizza, then take his car to get the oil changed. Learn how to drive stick-shift. Never drive his car, unless its to get the oil changed or wash it. Do not borrow his DVDs. Buy him more DVDs. Write him little notes. If he asks you to go to a show without him, go, its probably guy's night out. Never ask him to go for a drive unless you are paying for gas. And oil. And driving your car. And your car has a built-in DVD player. When you ask to go shopping, you really mean "Let's decide now what we want to buy, and only buy that." Do not try on 11 pairs of shoes just to see how they look. "Shopping" means going to Best Buy or Home Depot. When he is sick, bring him soup, rent him porn, then leave. Buy him steaks. Let him take all the naked picture of you he wants. When you dance, freak the shit out of him. Remind him of dates, because he will forget. Do not get mad at him when he forgets dates, even if you reminded him. Kiss his penis. When you fall in love with him, don't say anything, he fell in love with you from day one.
*yeah he made me put this on but you have to admit it is funny =)*
Happy Mother's Day
Happy Mother's Day: I love my mother, my best friend. Though all the incomprensible outcomes in my life, my mother has been the only one to completely understand the intentions of my being; who I am. She's kept my secrets, listened to me when no other had, protected me; she gave me life. She's done more than any mother has. She cares for me like no other; I'd give my life up for her. She, honestly, is someone I could never accept living without. I can walk through this cold-hearted world knowing that when I come home, my mother will never be my downfall. She'll be the one to hear me out. I'm fortunate she's my mother. I'm fortunate for all that I have; all that I've learned from her. I thanks her for EVERY DAMN THING. I love her, that could never change.
* Today was awesome I got to spend the day with my mom and dad, we had a blast and it was great...i love spending time with them they make everything seem so perfect and wonderful. For mother's day I'd made my mommy a scarpbook of my brother and I since we were born with my mother in every pciture (which proved how great a mother she truly is)...I also got her this thingy to a spa so she can relax more since she has been stressed out lately. Yeah that was my highlight of today and I just wanted to share it with u guys =)!*
p.s waco was a blast too...it was great to spend time with ANNA...u're so awesome anna and such an awesome friend...and it was great that alot of ppl could come up with us to share her bday with us =)...much props to all that came =) hmm ROAD TRIPS ARE AWESOME!!!! we should do it more....
